argghh, meh and eekkkkk :-)

my cat was put down today- we'd had him for 15 years. a sad day for us all.

meh exam tomorrow not fun as its MATHS! urgghhhh

everything for me is finished a week on wednesday yay.... drinking and working full time for 6 weeks until oz!

hope all are well... nothing much else to say... lots of love

just back from funeral of my grandmothers brother: who has 3 children my grandmother has never met! it was a rather odd affair with very few people actually recognising each and peering at each other thinking ' she's looks like great aunt Betty, i wonder if she's so and so's daughter'. My grandmother has gained a neice, my mother a cousin and myself a cousin who is so many times removed bla bla called Wayne who lives in Somerset!

Now back home having been picked up from airpot by my chauffeur- James and waiting on Chinese take away delivery!


ho hummmmmmmmmm *stomach growles*

hope alls well with you guys!

H XXX

FACTS

1961 - In the Soviet Union, Joseph Stalin's body is removed from Lenin's Tomb.

1998 - Iraq disarmament crisis begins: Iraq announces it would no longer cooperate with United Nations weapons inspectors.

475BC - Romulus Augustus was proclaimed Roman Emperor.

BIRTHS
1950 - John Candy, Canadian comedian and actor (d. 1994)

1795 - John Keats, British poet (d. 1821)

DEATHS
1984 - Indira Gandhi, Prime Minister of India (b. 1917)

Does anyone know of a shop that sells Top Hats..... or somewhere online that does....?

I've had real trouble finding anything!

arggghhhhhh i've got conjunctivitus- buts its now going away, i looked truely awful adn my quasimodo impressions are wanted in hollywood! so glad James is away Skiing so he didn't see it! yeah so party on friday- should be a good laugh, dressing up is always a must, i will be in corset and something else! well one would hope so!

then picking lover boy up from airport on saturday afternoon and working at night! but J and I are going away for romantic birthday treat on monday and tuesday nights

hold - eye drop time!....

yuk! hate that shit i still flinch every time!

I know this is normally a placed to bitch and moan and to announce parties but hey fuck it I'm in love and its fucking awesome, so everybody go out there and fine someone to love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

H
p.s I love you all as well as my boy!!!!!!!

any definites to go see 3 Doors Down on 1st April 2006 ( saturday night ) cos i'm gonna buy tickets pretty soon, and I can buy a few at a time! Kit you said before you were keen. still are? Greig? anyone else more than welcome!!! XXXX

I'M PURPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love my hair!


everyone stares in wonder!!! lol

copying kat and Colin my names dictionary definition is...... lol..... Visually Addictive!

see you guys monday, yay I have a life from Midday tomorrow!

1st April glasgow 3 DOORS DOWN CONCERT!!!!!1

anyone up for it?

VERY EXCITED HOLLY!
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p.s one day i will be out- i hate this placement I have no life!

YAY james is back in the country!!!!! fuck I can't believe, adn I'm amazingly calm- whats wrong with me!!! LOL

going out for dinner with him and his dad tonight-eeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

fuck I don't think I could be any happier right now!

Happy New Year !

I hope everyone has a good 2006

I'm sorry that people have had sad memories of 2005 or of any year- its just not fair in so many ways, but if 2005 taught me anything it is that we do have so much and that there are people in the world who struggle every day to feed cloth and find the basics like water and we should remember that most of us are very lucky to have that handed to us on a plate.

I wish everyone happiness and fulfillment in their lives......

as always i liek to refer to my favourite poem

(http://www.oriahmountaindreamer.com/)

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.


love to you ALL!

XXXXXX

MY year

Jan- obsession with yet another australian! only to not live up to expectations- should have been more realistic! LOL but was a great distraction from the other australian!

Feb- meh, feb is always crappy

March- 5th Jess arrived and filled my life with joy, dated Grieg, Saudi boys came

April- went to Morrocco with Mum and dad and friends- got ill. started stressing about all the stuff i had to do, school trip, field trip, essays- argghhhhhh

May- placement, prep for India and ceilidh

June- passed driving test, went to india and had the most amazing time!

July- India

August- India and come home to re sit essay

Septemer- all back to normal at home, move in flat, meet James(yay) Start uni

October- james, prep for samhuinn, Miss saigon, james, he leaves same day Jess back from Europe!!!!!, my birthday/SAmhuinn

November- boohooo samhuinn over everyone a bit low, spike's birthday Harry Potter!!!

December- jess move in for last few weeks, Narnia realsed, essays in, Tonks' birthday party, Saudi, home, Xmas day/jess leave- broken heart!, Chill, New YEARSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS with Rob and Clare and will see best mate of australian from Jan- LOL ................... and it all starts again, no no...

........23 days til James is home!

BOOHOOOO jess ins't here

YAY rob is up for new years, one really positive thing for new years....

hurry up 22nd!

miss jess!

enjoying my last 11 hours with my darling girl Jess. Its amazing how one single person in a platonic sense can enter your life and leave you disarmed and vunerable in the best possible way, i truely feel that with her I could be the worst i can be and yet she's still want to hug me and watch pride and prejudice adn cry at silly things. i love this girl and for those of you who don't know her well- its a shame you haven't becuase she is the best friend you could ever want..... or in my case need.

so goodbye my darling girl I'll see you in 7 months but until then my life will be eternally empty without you there day to day.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm currently sitting in the 1st class lounge for Saudi airlines.... sipping juices and eating ice cream!!!! are you jealous!??????!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

In such a dilema!!!!!!!!

I was looking at photos from 2 years ago.... i was blonde thena dn I think I'm tempted to go back.... cos if i don't like it i can just shove brown back on top of it............
her is a photo me as a blonde....... argghhhhhh can't find one..... use imagination!!!

what do people think... life as a blonde or dark brown again?

I would never recommend doing a long distance relationship, its hurts too god damn much, and you can feel so alone( especailly when you are a bit tispy i may add)

My boy is wonderful but i wonder is this worth it, but then i know that if i did end it today i would feel the same for the rest of the time he was awa- miss him and feel lonely! and i would risk losing him for good if i gave up now!!!!

argghhhhhhh alcohol does bring out your true feelings!!!!!!!!

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO drunken last night, snogged ros and Tonks( much giggling) my boy would be proud, last night restored my faith in opium and subway, but it was the folk there who made it. love you guys very much, any of you who weren't there, you missed a good night


much love

It always amazes me how fast my dad can upset me, literally with 5 words, god he's such an impatient old git- don't get my wrong absolutely adore the man but he can reduce me to tears in a few seconds, sooooooooooooooo pissed off!!!!

but yay got to speak to James this morning, woohoooooooooooo.DAY DREAM!!!!!!!!!!

off to ann summers party tonight should be a good laugh.